Twilight Zone in My Life

It's a pretty good indication that you're done when you dread the weekends because you're husband will be around. He and I seem to be avoiding this conversation we need to have and I guess I really need to bite the bullet and start things. I'm not good at this at all. But this weekend....I really feel like I'm losing my mind a bit. He actually asked over dinner last night if I'd nixed Florida for our summer vacation idea or if I was waiting on flight sales. I wanted to smack him - I'm not planning something into July with you. Did you atttend the same session I did last week? The one I said I'd be relieved if he said things were over? The one I said I don't think I can get past all of what's already happened? He put in a lot of effort around the house yesterday. He filled a crack in our garage finally - literally was supposed to be done 10 1/2 years ago. That's not an exaggeration! Because of this crack, our garage floods when it heavily rains. Last week was a disaster in there. So because he knows I can't stand how he does nothing, I guess he decided to do it. Know how long it took? 30 mins. Which irritated me even more because how could this not have been done a decade ago? Honest to God. Definition of lazy.... He did some other things to. and I just want to scream, too little too late. And you can go full force for a few weeks but your personality can't keep up because you're inherently lazy and we'll just be back to where we always are; me doing it all, you doing nothing. I am done. I am exhausted, I am sad, I am angry, I am BAFFLED by how he is acting like nothing is wrong. So the discussion needs to happen. I know this. Truthfully, there has yet to really be a time to have said discussion since Olivia is reading til 9 and we obviously don't want her to hear. But I need to speak up and say my peace.