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Well. Nobody really reads this (except you, I think Salty!) but I thought I should note that we're all doing very well. G moved out on May 18th. The kids did amazing. We're doing really, real...

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So we told the kids we're splitting up on April vacation. And they took it really, really well. So well I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop and hoping for the best. But today I'm feeling we...

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We had a counseling session yesterday. G had a separate one last week, so she knew we'd decide to separate. The appointment went really well. She was really impressed with how friendly we are,...

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We finally talked last night. I told him we needed to when he got home from the gym. I couldn't go another day, the anticipation was absolutely killing me. And it's all just very sad, frankly....

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It's a pretty good indication that you're done when you dread the weekends because you're husband will be around. He and I seem to be avoiding this conversation we need to have and I guess I rea...

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I just got an email from G asking if "you would be amenable to going away for a weekend just the 2 of us." Um, first of all, amenable? Let's talk normally. Second of all, did we attend the same...

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Marriage counseling today. Psychic yesterday. None of it was good, really. Psychic was not as good as last time, although that could be because last time was the first time I saw her and I ha...

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A whole news story on what this is because Gwenyth Paltrow and soon to be ex husband are calling their divorce this. I like it, actually. I like the conscious decision not to be awful through a...

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My favorite comedy show....and I watched it alone today and thought how on earth can a comedy be so poignant and hit on my own life and marital problems? WHAT?! She said "If I was always honest w...

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I realized this weekend that if G said he wanted a divorce, I'd be relieved. I'd be frightened and sad and worried about the kids, but relieved. I realized the issue is that I am, and always ha...

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Had lunch with my dad today. Filled him on things. He hadn't heard about how G missed our appointment a few weeks ago, he didn't know things were this bad. I explained what happened during our...

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Last night was our first scheduled talk after our rough counseling appointment. It went much better than I thought; I figured it would be 15 mins of mostly silence but it was about 45 of product...

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Today's session was pretty volatile. G thinks I've done nothing to change, I think he's a totally different person than he used to be, yadda yadda yadda. M, our counselor, finally said in her m...

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So I'm back from my business trip to Florida. It was harder as the days went on; harder than I thought. The first two days/evenings were great and fun (no real business yet!), getting to know m...

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Yesterday, I had a day full of panic and guilty feelings on and off. My daughter was home sick, so maybe it was that my routine was thrown (I work from home) or .... I don't know. My friend las...

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I feel like my days, morning to night, are constantly spent thinking I can't do this anymore. I have a business trip on Saturday or I'd probably be addressing this now. Or soon. Now seems scary...

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Wednesday he missed the counseling appointment - no verbal apology or discussion of it Just a text after I told him he missed it. Thursday he texted me just after 5, which is when he is usually h...

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I spent my morning crunching numbers. I pay all the bills, so I know exactly what each bill we pay is and what I bring home vs what he brings home, etc. I needed to see where I'd be if....when....

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In marriage counseling, it's helpful when both parties show up. We had an appointment at 1 today. I emailed him - so he could save it and remember - Monday that the appointment was Weds at 1pm....

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We have a counseling session tomorrow. It'll have been 3 weeks. We were told to think about the 2 books we'd read and come up with three things from those books we could use to help change thing...

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12 years at Opendiary and they shut down. I probably spent 8 of those years actively writing and then remaining 4 occasionally logging on, occasionally making an entry. Still, to know my entrie...

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