Sad in Torridaussity Two

I am just overall sad right now. I am pretty sure I will not continue to see Dan because he just seems to primarily only care about the physical side of a relationship and not actually continuing to get to know me and I just don’t want that. I am seeing if he redeems himself in the next few days and if not, on to the next step and that is focusing on me. I am sad because I am just no closer to my dreams of a finding love and having a family of my own. I am sad because my hours are high enough at work I can’t get unemployment anymore, but low enough I am worrying about bills and my savings are dwindling. I am sad because I am barely functioning like an adult and so that makes me take a look at myself and say you don’t need a relationship until you can function better, but I am lonely and want a connection with someone which makes me more sad and function less, a vicious cycle. I am sad because I just am. I can say that this past week while trying to not focus on the Dan situation I have forced myself to function better and that is step on so just gotta keep on keeping on. Thanks for those of you who read me and give me support. I keep all this from people in my real life because honestly I don’t want their pity or there “helpful” advice. All I want is to be told it’s ok to feel what you are feeling and those things are sad and life may not be what you want, but you will get through it…