im done with instagram in Diaries

I’m so done. Don’t get me wrong. There is nothing wrong with instagram. It’s still a great way to keep in touch with many people or show your creative side. But neither applied to me. I’ve had it for about 5 years. It completely consumed me. I was checking on the app as soon as I woke up and right before bed. I got anxious to see what other people were doing or if I got a new like/comment or follower. I felt as if I had to be validated, I needed approval from my followers. If I barely got 30 likes in a picture, I thought “am i not pretty enough??” or “maybe i’ll post something more attractive to get those extra likes”. What???? Why should that even matter? Also, I let the app make my insecurities worse. I looked at all these beautiful girls and seeing all these people live a seemingly perfect life, and I put myself down for not achieving that. I tried to alter my style or look or be so desperate to look like these girls. I realized that none of that should really matter. There’s more to life than staring down on the screen wishing I had what other people had. I realized I wasted so many hours on the app when I could’ve done something more meaningful. I feel so much better not comparing myself to someone else’s beauty or lifestyle. I’m me. I should learn to accept myself and love myself for who I am. It’s a work in progress but I’ll get there.