a best friend in Diaries

What’s it like? I never had a best friend before. There were times when I had friends who I thought were my best friends but they didn’t think so…it sucked. For a while I kinda gave up on the idea of a best friend. But here i am now, slightly envious of that sort of relationship that people have. I wish I had that person I could tell everything to without judgement, I wish I had those memories and a long history with someone, I wish I was someone’s person (Grey’s Anatomy anyone?). I’m always either the third wheel or someone drops me out of nowhere. Am i not worth being a best friend? Am I boring, or too sensitive or just simply not good enough? I’m not sure. Maybe it’s neither of those things. Maybe I simply don’t need that person. I mean I handled it pretty well by myself so far, but still. I wish I had that someone.