Boo in Current Events
- May 23, 2020, 10:57 a.m.
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Here are a few things that I could be doing during these strange times but can’t bring myself to do:
-I have a pile of books that I want to read
-I have a queue of audiobooks that I want to finish
-I could take an online course on writing
-I could start writing my novel
-I could start practicing basic calisthenic exercises
-I could research the various online courses to become a nutritionist
-I could take an online course on how to start investing
-I have a pile of unfinished paintings that I could finish
-I have two guitars that I could continue learning how to play
Nobody is truly bored & lazy these days. We have constant entertainment. We are just afraid. So one of my online motivational speakers likes to say. What am I afraid of? Well, my monkey brain is too restless to get through my books and audiobooks. One of the books I am trying to read is the Bhagavad Gita and I feel stupid when I read it. It took me an hour to get through 35 pages and not because of my monkey brain but because it is a higher reading level than I am used to. Online courses are or were free during this quarantine and I could learn some stuff but I suppose that I am afraid that I will feel even more stupid. I’m afraid of going back to school in general because I haven’t done school in fifteen years. I’m scared of failing. As for writing my novel? I am deeply insecure about my writing skills. It takes me forever to get through a paragraph because I can’t bring myself to just it flow out of me. I have to go back and try and get everything perfect. My paintings never turn out the way I want them to so I immediately feel dread. I’ve forgotten almost everything when it comes to my guitar so I dunno. The callisthenics? I’m weak. So fucking weak. Ok, it’s not that bad but bodyweight exercises are so fucking hard.
It’s like, I know absolutely everything is a skill and all I need to do is practice. I guess I hate feeling stupid? Blah. I think what I really should do is learn how to tame this monkey brain of mine. It’s one rude bitch. Anyways, it’s another fine day in quarantine. I should go do something with my life
Oswego ⋅ May 23, 2020
I have very similar concerns. I would rather spend a couple of hours watching YouTubes than delve into the two piles of books on my nightstand or the three piles next to my bed or... there are more piles on the other side of the bed. I can hardly walk in there because I’m a bookaholic and they are my security. They don’t argue back with me like people! lol
You’re right. There’s absolutely no reason to be bored in this Internet age. Time zooms by like like an accelerated meeting app, whether we like it or not.
Try to read the hardest stuff you can. Never underestimate the capacity of your brain/mind. The harder it is at first the more worlds/universes open up. You gotta keep at it. Take little steps like I do and read a couple of page sof one book, mark the spot and underline a wise saying, close the book and move on to the next. Reward yourself with a snack and a YouRube! Your very choice of what to read (or buy) speaks volumes (pardon the pun). I think we all (well, many of us..lol) badly underestimate ourselves.
Swanny ⋅ May 23, 2020
What calisthenic exercises are you thinking of doing? I'm curious to hear/learn more.
Our gyms have just re-opened for group fitness and I can feel the improvement in my mental health already after just a week. The DOMS are destroying me though.
TL Swanny ⋅ May 23, 2020
This is my inspo video. What are DOMS? That means something else in my gay world. I want to join a crossfit gym and I have a friend who is willing to join me so maybe.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WKEgHKOvYTE
Swanny TL ⋅ May 24, 2020
Delayed onset muscle soreness hahaha