Training in Weight Loss Surgery

Before every training session I consider cancelling.
Because I know that working out twice a week and eating like shit 7 days a week is not helping anything.

So I had a training session this morning and I really drug my feets about it.

But she had some really comforting advice.

I think I told you that she used to be big like me. She’s maybe 180 now - which may still be bg to some but she came down from the 280’s where I am now.

She told me that it took her 2 years and half assing to get down to 220 - then her friend died and she got serious about her health. She got certified as a personal training and then she on the detox tea kick and she’s been going down ever since.

But she’s been stuck around this same weight for a year. She still has 40lbs she wants to lose. She may even get skin surgery after that.

And she feels bad about herself sometimes. Sad about how LONG it’s taken and how much time she wasted being obeese and even the fact that she still binges and has bad snacks even though she’s a personal training and the face of her detox business.

She gets down on herself too, and that’s ok.

So it made me feel better.

It doesn’t exactly change my struggle but I guess misery loves company and hearing of her woes made me feel better.

I don’t know if I’m going to tell her when I get the balloons either.

Part of me thinks if I don’t tell her it’s like I’m cheating.
But the other part of me is like - she wants me to be on a 1500 cal diet. These balloons will make it possible for me to stick to that diet.
So if I stick to the diet with the appetite suppressing balloons and work out and do the teas and I lose weight successfully, why should I tell her about my short cut.

I dunno, lets just get the doc office to even call me back first. But maybe today with that Knight rushing forward in my tarot pull for today…

Last updated December 20, 2020