Ace of Wands & 4 of wands reversed in Weight Loss Surgery

I usually do one card a day but these both came up face up so I’m just gonna take it. Maybe not everyday is a one card day.

The first one is the Ace of Wands - which is a really great card. I know that any Ace symbolizes a gift from God and the wand is the symbol of an idea in action - as opposed to just an idea you’re thinking about.

Since I’ve full on decided that I will get those gastric balloons, I would say that’s action - wouldn’t you.

We’re in a pandemic so I know I won’t be going to the office anytime soon but I had never really made the decision that I was going to do it before. I’ve just thought about it for a very long time.

Weight loss surgeries have been around for a very long time. But I’ve always been resistant to being put to sleep and going under the knife. There are also horror stories about people’s intestines being permanently fucked up if your body doesn’t react to it right.

And also the fact that, even if they cut your stomach down to the size of an egg, you can continue to over eat and stretch it back out to where you were before and the risk and expense of the surgery would be a total waste.

I only learned about the gastric balloons last year. Basically you swallow a capsule that inflates into a balloon in your stomach. They put three in there that fills your stomach up so you can’t eat as much as you used to.

This is not for major weight loss I don’t believe. For me this could be a stepping stone to me losing the weight on my own. I don’t think that people lose hundreds of pounds with this. I think the most I’ve seen lost is 75. But imagine the exercise I could do with 75lbs of fat gone.
Right now I’m just tired and slow all the time. I do work out but prob not with the intensity you do.

After a year the balloons come out. At that point you are “lightly” sedated so they can go down your throat and puncture the balloons and take them out.

I imagine this will be a uncomfortable and releasing all that gas will probably leave you feeling unpleasant for a while but there’s no cutting of my body. No blood. No stitches. I’m ok with this considering the other options.

There’s no such thing as “shrinking” your stomach without them cutting it away. It’s all in your mind. After a year of eating small portions, my appetite shouldn’t be the bottomless pit it now is. And if I keep up with the exercising, I should be gaining muscle and becoming more healthy.

Some people get the gastic bypass and do no exercise and their body becomes deflated. I don’t want that. I want to build muscle and feel energized!

Plus the fact that, I never have been a usual weight for my age and height. I’m not trying to get down to a 120lb highschool weight - cause I was prob that weight in elementary school LOL.

I’ve always wanted just a kick start. So if I lose 50lbs with these balloons and then continue on my own, that would be great.

Will I continue on my own remains to be seen. I’ve quit a lot of gyms, trainers, and diets. But I’ve also felt unmotivated because I’ve been too out of shape to put forth enough intensity to make any real difference. If someone took 50lbs off me today I think I’d be a different person.

I’ve lost weight before but it’s always been in unhealthy ways that I couldn’t keep up with and that’s why I gained it all back.

I’m just putting all my eggs in this basket at this point.

I went to the website and put my contact info for them to contact me. I dunno if they’ll email or call. I’m sure the first step is an in - person consultation but at this day and age - I’m not sure what they’ll do and when.

I’m so ready for this.

But the cost? Well I don’t know. That’s another reason I’ve stalled on this thing. I’ve seen many different prices from $3000 to $10000 and I don’t think it’s covered by insurance. So I pretty much know I’m gonna put this on a credit card and pay it off for the rest of my life. Or at least a few years.

What else is my money going to anyway?

Another reason I didn’t want an actual weight loss “surgery” is because Will is in worse shape with me and I know if I got it, he would follow suit. And I wouldn’t be able to live it down if he died on the table doing the same surgery I did.

But I don’t think anyone was died from this and even if they have. I don’t have a big fear that me and/or Will will die from this procedure. Nothing is permanently altered. It all just seems much safer.

The second card is the 4 of wands reversed. Upright the 4 of wands shows you sitting under a tree with 3 cups in front of you. You are for some reason unsatisfied with the cups you are looking at. Out of a cloud the universe is giving you another cup but you don’t yet see it.

Being in reverse I would assume that I am NOT looking at the what’s in front of me that is making me unsatisfied and instead AM looking at the gift from the universe.

This also seems like a good sign about my decision. Maybe those 3 cups were my unsatisfactory body that I am turning away from for the new one the universe will grant me.

The books says the ace of wands is like the first step in a new journey towards a better future.

The books says that the 4 of cups is being in fear to make a choice. Hesitation keeps you from making a choice that could bring you joy. Fear of the unknown. But being in reverse means I’m not in fear and hesitation anymore.

I hope they contact me back Very Soon.

Last updated December 20, 2020