Not Ready for Monday... in I don't know what I'm doing

So this weekend went really fast. My mom and grandma came to visit. It was really great seeing them and spending a little time with them. It just really made the weekend blow by. I haven’t had much chill weekend time to get ready for the upcoming week of work. The good thing is I’m off next Monday for Memorial day. That will be nice.
I’m here in bed, not quite wound down yet. Searching the web to see if Tahj Mowry is gay, I am in love with him! He probably isn’t though.
I am suppose to be meeting the guy I met on Facebook this coming weekend. Kind of nervous about that, self conscience. Scare he won’t like me once he see’s me in person. It’s just so nerve wracking when you are so use to being rejected and ghosted consistently.
I just need to think positive and love myself and let whatever happens, happen.
I need to learn to just take each day as it comes and not worry so much about the future or live too much in the past. It is what causes so much of my anxiety and sadness. I need to just live in the moment and enjoy it. It seems so easy, but it definitely isn’t. We just aren’t raised or wired that way in todays society in the western part of the world.
I really need to work on it though. It’d probably help to feel better and enjoy my life more.
Well it’s time to sleep.