I Just Dropped Tears in meh...

  • May 10, 2020, 9:01 a.m.
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It is, of course, Mother’s Day. I just dropped a nugget on Twitter that made me kind of cry.

I have close friends/loved ones who no longer have their mothers. I can’t even see my mother, who is alive, save for this appointment tomorrow. There has been so much damn loss due to coronavirus, including my cousin, who is sister to Maxine Waters and Roy from Siegfried & Roy. Music industry losses (Andre Harrell- 90s music is my life’s backdrop- Little Richard)…combined with this feeling that’s been growing inside me, hell yes I cried. I’m surprised it’s not more than what it is.

I’m trying not to be affected by what’s going on. My grandson’s school closing is a loss. The teachers who haven’t found jobs. The administrators who have lost, the students who had stability there. It took 2 months for those lying ass knuckle draggers to be arrested for Ahmaud’s death in Georgia. 2 months. We are just NOW hearing about this, but these mfrs have been out chilling for 2 months before anything was done. Trump is a flipping moron who doesn’t know his elbow from his asshole. Friends who are all “I know I’m not sick, and who ai hang with know they’re not sick.” This shit is madness. I’m barely going out to get food or some other necessities.

I’m weighed down. I’ve avoided news as much as possible, but still can’t seem to leave my room. I don’t…::sighs:: I’m suffering empath shit. I’m feeling too much. Ignoring it is not good. I try not to give it weight because I have a 9 year old in house that is very sensitive. So I keep life pushing.

My son is doing a presentation. LOL

Take care.
If you can, have a Happy Mother’s Day. If you want to sit this one out, that’s fine too.

I love you all.

Kindest regards,
Sister


Gilraent May 10, 2020

We are having such a hard time with the shit show that the world has become. All the horrible energy, the anger, the sickness, the losses. ::sigh::

But, I don't think I would like not being an empath. Or, I wouldn't like myself... more than I already do. You know what I mean.

I'm really good about turning it down, usually. But that's just impossible to do anymore.

Sister Gilraent ⋅ May 10, 2020

I do know what you mean.
Just found out another music industry person died this morning.

I bought wine and I'm going to eat slow cooker carnitas. I'm going to watch a Japanese show with my son and try to drown out the world right now.

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