Tizzy fit over in Bittersweet

I feel better now. I went ahead and went to the room and stayed there for hours. I threw dinner in and went back to the room. Eventually papa came down and did the rest of dinner and yelled at everyone I was resting and to shut up haha. Dosent help when he yells. BUT still, the thought counts.
Im still exhausted. I ended up staying up way too late. Playing animal crossing on my tablet. They have a mini mobile edition? I guess the one on the switch is “bigger” But im cool with tablet games.
It wasnt just the staying up late playing the game though. Technically at dinner time around 7 I came out of the room, ate dinner. Then ignored my husband watching the newest star wars ( enter eye rolling here) I sewed a bunch more masks. I have 6 new ones finished and 9 just needing to turn the elastic casing and stitch a vertical stitch to hold the elastic in place. Its like 2 minutes of work a mask. Then i can add the elastic and ill have another 9. I know a lot of people are selling them, im sending most of them off to friends who need them. If they cover shipping or throw in a few extra bucks so i can buy more material thats cool. Im not making them to make a bunch of money. I wanted 2 per person in my house, so we can wash them. Even the kids got them although they dont leave.

Ive been getting more and more frustrated. Even though ive got a bit of a trip planned for next weekend. Feeling so cooped up is hard. Next weekend im traveling to Missouri to pick up bunnies. Im not visiting, not talking to no one, Just driving in and driving out. I know its risky but i made the arrangements and we were hoping things would calm down. They are pretty even kilter right now in this area. So we are going to go for it. Its going to be a turn and burn. IE drive in, turn around drive back. And we will be able to get a drive in. Ill be sure to bring my masks lol.

Mostly the house isnt doing much of staying home either.... I mean we are, 99% of the time. But we are making the trips to do home improvement stuff. Or trips to get food. I mean my dad wanted pancakes but didnt like the pancake mix i got so had to go find his mix. Or corned beef hash. We are staying home most of the time. But someone always goes to the store every day.

I dont know why it miffs me, but my parents just left with my sister and her husband to go get things to play in the downstairs bathroom they ruined months ago. Ok yes i do know why it bothers me. It bothers me that they had to ask us to cover 3K in bills and mortgage and my sister gets to skate off. She got her stimulus already and her husbands was taken because he dosent pay his child support. So now they are not wanting to ask her for money because she only got hers and the two kids… They pay ALL her bills. Her phone, her insurance… she just buys herself food and i buy food her kids eat. Its so frustrating to me. And i think im getting bitter over it too.

We were using our stimulus to pay off our credit card, Now we are buying a whole cow. Half a cow lasted us 4 months. I could cry. That went WAY too fast.... So T ordered another cow. Will be ready in a month… Another 2500 in beef that they will eat. Ahh bitterness.

Ok happy stuff happy stuff. Baby bunnies survived our snow storm and a dog fight yesterday. They are doing good.
Im going to start another blanket pattern. There is the quarantine crochet a long. I think ill make it. Its pretty awesome. Just going to have to get some yarn… See the problem lol..... My friend is getting into spinning and im getting jealous. Mostly because where it took me months to get my stuff and started, She is buying everything outright and has people wanting to buy it. And im like.... Damn it, i dont have that salesmens personality lol. Right now i have the personality of a moody whiny bitch… So that dosent help. Ahhh ok im getting mopy again. I feel like my antidepressants arent working and my thyroid meds are lacking… That and the cold two days and being cooped up without being able to go for a walk is kicking my ass too. Because the bitter and jealousy is coming out.... In 5 years things will be better for me too. Ill just be 40 and hopefully not miserable.

ok i gotta go, husband wants lunch, im going to make him stop at walmart for quarantine blanket yarn. IF they have any…

Btw, check out this mask i made. Its hilarious. I love it. Just wait till my ordered fabric comes in… haha