the virus thingy. in 2007: March 1: transferred fom FOD

so. my mom showed me the email from my. that my psych. had sent her. [again. for the 3rd time. i see a psychologist and they’re not the meds people.]. and for some reason. i misunderstood and thought. they’d have video sessions for all. their patients. which isn’t something i’d want. um. but no only the ones who are in crisis.
and when i told my mom i thought this she explained. it to me and she’s ‘but you’re not in crisis’ not............as far as anyone offline knows.............no um. but my depression has gotten a bit better. a few wks. ago it got really bad. which people offline don’t know for obvious reasons. which again i have explained in prior entries so. the obvious reasons.
um. it’s weird that people are buying more tp then usual. and here’s why: bc of medical reasons. coronavirus isn’t. an intestinal disorder/virus. [ok. and i know why people are buying more then usual.]. it would make more sense. if. people had some of intestinal thingy [like well the stomach flu] and it got really bad............to the point where they shouldn’t leave their house.s and that’s why they had more tp then usual.
um. ya know what no one seems to realise? there hasn’t been news of a shooting in wks.
i’m not being not social in case i get sick: no it’s that. i’m not all that social to begin w/. it has nothing to do w/ getting sick. if people i don’t know physically get too close to me. no it’s not about getting sick. cause like i’ve said. no it’s i don’t like that anyway.
like i know it’s real and it’s here. but no one i know offline has gotten it so. that’s kindof why i’m ignoring it. it’s this vague abstract distant thing. to me. i’m not denying its existance. i’m well like i said.
i mean. the other drawback. and this is kindof a big thing. is that my comp. the one that needs a new hard drive. well it’s still at the place. [i’m not a phone person so. which is why i don’t call most business types. and email............that doesn’t work. like emailing them isn’t a solution that would work for me.]. and. i have a lot of my stuff backed up on google drive which a person can access from anywhere. like w/ email. but not everything cause i’m not on it that often google drive. and so. my notes for the meetings. are on that comp. and i hate. not being prepared. that’s not really allow-able for me. [again. i don’t want advice. i don’t know how many times i have to say this.]. and bc i think the people who. actually make hard drives are out of commission due to the stupid virus thingy..........i won’t have the notes. and like it’s not their fault people are getting the virus. but. like it wouldn’t be right of me or fair. to push the comp. people at the place. where my comp. is to like. get the new hard drive faster. also i don’t think that’s realistic right now. at all. and they do good work we’ve been going to them for at least the last 3 yrs. if not more. so i at least owe them my patience. like i have another comp. the one i’m typing this entry on actually. that’s not the main issue. and yes stuff is saved on my ext. hard drive...........but i’m not sure if the notes, are. so. but like i said. i owe them my patience.
i’m not seeing my psych. any time soon so. it’s not like i have to get the notes ready for that like ‘right away’, or anything. and................i’m not seeing my perio lady untill june so same thing. the notes for the house meetings are really the only major thing.
oh right. so on............thurs. the mall was open but no one was working at starbucks. i saw another lady in there but i think she was going to her car. um. there was a security lady there walking around but i decided. to head back to my mom’s before i had a confrontation w/ the security lady. they’re like the cops: i wouldn’t go to either if like. something major happened. i don’t trust the cops or well most people. the cops are supposed to help people and yet. they’re intimidating so i don’t imagine that works out too well. i’m not bashing them i’m just saying i wouldn’t go, to them. for major things.
um right. so after my short time at the mall............i went back to my mom’s. oh we played scrabble it was enjoyable. i also went to whole foods at some point on thurs. and got chai. i never get chai from them i get it from starbucks which. i could’ve done but there seating area was closed and i really. don’t like standing so. [i know why it’s closed btw,]. oh yeah i. sat outside in a chair [they have these metal chairs outside the store that are screwed down] and had the chai. it was good.
oh yeah the banks are open well some, are open. which i didn’t think they would be and i didn’t know untill. i was watching the news at my mom’s and they said. banks are open well some, of them are open. not the wells fargo by the whole foods by my mom’s which is fine actually. i don’t like going in there cause they have greeter people. the fuel stations will be open apparently. which doesn’t impact me personally cause i don’t drive. no i’m just noting. that they’ll be.