Day WTF ever in Bittersweet

  • March 18, 2020, 10:05 p.m.
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So as of Friday we will have been trying to self restrict. So far ive failed every day. I had to go to the bank today, then lowes.

Moms fever is gone but her cough is nasty. Ive started a dry tickle in my chest and coughing. Mom still cant go to work. I had a dream that she was in the hospital and sick… She has a weak respiratory system and is in her 60s. Grandpa of course being slightly senile ignored us all at dont take the bus. He left and took the bus. He slips out. Hes capable of taking himself out. But he takes the bus. To get lunch somewhere. ALL dine ins are closed. So he didnt get lunch. He was only gone 3 hours. At least with snow tomorrow he wont take the bus somewhere. He refuses to stay put.

Husband went to work. I got to work on his blanket.

Kids played outside most of the day while it was nice. Till the clouds blew in. Then we gave them a new game for the switch. So we have 4 of 6 taking turns on mario kart on the switch. Oh wait no, 5. Two are now on their computers. :) I have them trade off every round. Rotate your remote to the right please lol. Or you get out of line if you throw a fit. Either rotate kindly or go downstairs and no game for you.

Homeschool, as planned. Colorado says its canceling school till the end of april but reccomending it close for the year. We are still enrolled in ak so it dosent matter. Im going to keep schooling my kids as scheduled. 3 assignments per class per day comes to around 1.5 to 2 hours of work. We are limiting out play times. Not much with other people. No parks. Lots of kids bike riding and being around. Just not parks full of plastic where virus’s can live.

Todays lessons included Mario Kart ( cooperative play? Uhhh sportsmanship and taking turns! ) outside play ( gym class,) trampoline, walk the dogs, bike rides. And a couple lessons after dinner. I didnt push much on them. I gave them the new video game instead. Im trying to lesson the stress. I have one with anxiety already and at 8 hes watching EVERY news video and reading everything he can then having panic attacks.

Um..... Nothing happened with buns. Rooster got the outside pen. Amber got loose in the house. Frostbite had house time too. No new cages built. Just same old same old. I have two more to shear. BUT its going to be nasty for two days. So im waiting for after that.

… Im bored? Im missing my dye stuff and whatnot for crafts. Ive spun so much of my colored wool and i cant afford to buy more unless i sell something. Which i think everyone is in the same boat right? Cant buy unless something sells. Thankfully hubbys job wont stop. But still. My mom is on a week break. dad out of work. sister wants to quit. husband is the only one working and we cant support this house alone....So i just want to do the stupid thing and buy buy buy. Im being good. Even though i want to.

Dang it im so dizzy today. I took ALL of my meds. I normally take one med every other day so i dont have reactions with the exception of my thyroid meds that i take every day. But not at the same time as any other med. But i took everything today because ive been feeling teary and down. Im not massivly stressed. Dont think that. Im feeling a bit depressed and honestly i dont recognize myself when i see me in the mirror. It makes things really hard.

Ok i better get going to need to frog back a couple rows on my cowl im working on. But maybe ill do some spinning instead. Who knows… Read maybe…


Jinn March 20, 2020

I think everyone I know is minorly depressed. This is a whole new world and it’s kind of a scary one.

ChainedChrysalis Jinn ⋅ March 20, 2020

I agree. Im volatile and have to keep on track of my medication. Or ill spiral.

Jinn ChainedChrysalis ⋅ March 20, 2020

It takes a minute to get the right mindset .:-)

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