Hey....I’ve been so depressed its not even funny. Drinking myself to sleep everyday. I find it hard to be sober without you here. I feel like an idiot for keeping these journals, cuz you don’t feel shit for me anymore. I’m sad almost all of the day and when I’m at work, I have to fake being happy just so I can ‘live’. I thought about when we went to United Skates of America.
We were only dating for a month or two. I don’t think we were living together yet. We decided to go rollerblading together. We talked about how your ex boyfriend treated you when you were together. I remember telling myself that I will never be like that. I was going to treat you so good that you will only want to be with me for the rest of your life. Obviously that failed.
I don’t really like to go out, especially when I have to actually do something like skating. But I went with you and I had a really good time. You’re a pretty good skater. Except for right before we left. We were going to do a few more laps around when I look over at you, and you fall right on your ass. I rushed over to you to help you out. But you were laughing. I don’t want you hurt. But it was all fun. You didn’t get hurt that bad.
On a serious note. I’m really struggling here. Please come back. My friend asked me what will make me get over you....Seeing you would fix that. Just once. For an hour or so. Just to talk. I don’t know what I would say exactly, but I have some things I need to let out. Please don’t let me live like this anymore. If you ever loved me…find it in your heart to say ‘Hi’.........please....
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