About my boyfriend in ❅journal 2019❅

Note: i know i do this a lot but this relationship will not fail, I’m literally 100% obsessed with this guy, we’re both possessive, etc it works. If this relationship where to ever fail…I’d lose my goddamn mind. I don’t think id be able to handle it emotionally. My body literally shakes at the meer thought of it. I trust hin a lot, he’s the only one who truly knows me that reads this diary.

Um anyway, he cute. Very cute. Like a big fluffy ball of softness, cuddly tall teddy bear. He praises me a lot and knows when i need to be commanded in a way? Like, I’ll get hysterical and he’ll get all posessive an intimidating an I’ll be able to calm down andd feel lighter.

I’ve had one friend comment on how seems Posessive and controlling, but they deleted the dm befotr i could read everything. But he isn’t, he’s perfect.

I know I can’t be alone, i don’t function..i fall apart and want to die more and more. But he understands that and makes rules for me to follow. He loves me, he does…finally someone actually loves me and wants me for me.