Letting someone read the diary in ❅journal 2019❅
- Nov. 26, 2019, 4:11 a.m.
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“Wow.”
This is what my boyfriend said after reading this diary. I decided to allow someone in my personal life read and find out everything. I was extremely nervous, like I shaking when i sent the link.
I honestly didn’t think everything was that bad, but then again I stopped writing in here for a reason. It was such a cycle, loneliness, new partner, overwhelmingly happy entries, depressed suicidal entries, “I need more attention” entries and then it’d start all over. I was ashamed of this whole thing.
That’s why I didn’t write anything about my relationship with Will which i regret heavily. I wanna look back on this when I’m an adult, I’ve seen many people with online diaries dating back to the early 2010s-2000s. Imagine reading about your life back then to now.
In a decade I hope I have a well paying job and have therapy. Though I doubt that heavily, but i know I want to start making money some way soon. Commissions hopefully…
Either way, it fekt kinda reliving to have somebody read this thing who i talk to semi daily. He recommended I write weekly atleast and still reads my entries. It helps with communication to.
Loki ⋅ November 26, 2019 (edited November 26, 2019)
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I've got diary entries dating back to 2009 that I had copy & pasted to my Prosebox (everything pre-my return to here privatised now) and was reading back on entries from years ago. It was pretty interesting and amazing seeing all that has changed. Hopefully you'll keep writing and have your entries to look back on in years to come - and seeing what has changed and how far you've come.