I'm not okay... in Mental Health

  • Nov. 1, 2019, 7:09 p.m.
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… but I will be.

This won’t last forever. The sun will shine again and I’ll be okay. For a bit, anyway. Or a minute.


Feeling incredibly overwhelmed with both extreme depression and mania. That’s a pretty rapid cycle for the mania. But the pendulum hasn’t swung, exactly. I am feeling a pretty deep depression still, but just a bit ago, the mania burst in like the Kool-Aid man. It’s like being twisted apart in the middle, pulled in two directions.

Which way will it break?


Being aware is good. I gotta keep reminding myself of that. This is good. Knowing what I’m feeling, recognizing it for what it is, is good. The alternative, the before-time, that was not good. That was pretty terrifying, really, not knowing what was happening to me, not understanding. This is less terrifying.

I’m valid. I matter. I am loved. I have value. I am worthy. I’m winning at fucking life, ya’ll. Seriously. This bipolar shit is on my last nerve right now. My life is so good!


I’m not okay right this minute, but I will be. I may not be okay right now, but I’m still good.

Kristi1971 November 01, 2019

I love that in the middle of your roller coaster, you recognize that you are still good. That's HUGE! Big Hugs.

🌈 JustWillow 🦄 Kristi1971 ⋅ November 01, 2019

Thank you so much! Big hugs to you!

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