Sometimes you just don't know in My Thoughts

I would love to wake up in the morning with someone standing over me beating me on the head with a stick, that way I would at least know where the pain is coming from. I am so tired of people asking me why I am upset all the time. Why I am angry. I don’t know why I am and if I knew I would do something about it. Having anger and pain running through you is a terrible thing. Not knowing what to do to fix it is even worse.

I have watched my relationship with people slowly crumble because I am unable to find and fix my problems. I know I have them but I don’t know what to do about them. The pain it is causing me and those I love is not measurable.