Pix Maybe in Book Six: Trying to Hold On 2019
- Aug. 20, 2019, 1:41 p.m.
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Okay, to jazz myself up for a life of meaninglessness today, I’m reading Spin City Scripts. One of my all time favorite shows about politics and quite possibly the reason I’m okay being an ASSISTANT to the elected official. That being said? He’s 3 inches shorter than I am and weighs what I did in High School. So, if you’re ever wondering why am I so upset at my current weight… there you go. I went from being a tall Michael J. Fox to a short Donald Trump. Let that imagery sit with you for a minute!
One thing? I can’t get away from my relationship issues. Another important reason for individual therapy. Because I am reading what is undoubtedly funny and poignant for me… scripts based on one of the first times I remember actually laughing genuinely… and it is a work place comedy from the 1990s. So every time there is a “What did you have to tell me?” “I love you.” “I love you, too. Do you wanna get out of here?” “More than anything.” Anytime there is a dialogue like that… which does happen fairly often… I’m just… stuck in the heart a bit. People freely saying, “I love you.” People prioritizing time together. That time together also including sex. Now I get it. That’s a television show. And if there was one thing Television Shows in the 1990s were over stating was the prevalence of relationships, sex, and the importance of New York. But even still… I’m not so wrong for thinking that love and sex are still important to people, right?
Diana of the hunt ⋅ August 20, 2019
Just read your “On This Day” from 3 years ago. Why do you continue to suffer abuse and unhappiness? Every day you choose to accept it is one more day you choose to be unhappy and be a victim. There’s such a thing as being afraid to be happy; you can couch it in terms of “loving” your wife and “wanting to make it work.” At the end of the day, she’s still toxic.