Baby Step in Current Events
- July 9, 2019, 10:19 a.m.
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My nerves were so shot yesterday. I felt exactly the way I used to feel when I was a teenager by default. My social anxiety could not cope with school. Bev is picking me up shortly and taking me to the university and theoretically, I should have all my answers about what I need to do with my life to get into the faculty that I want. I am trying to trick my mind into thinking that I am excited about it instead of nervous but I am failing miserably. I’ll be okay. A huge portion of my day later will be me sitting down with my budget book, my weekly planner and my journal. I have to face all my fears and finally map out my future. I hope that I don’t hide from it. That will give me even worse anxiety.
If my nerves are this shot about just going somewhere to ask a few questions then I can’t even imagine how bad it will be when I go to a job interview.
Ha! I think that I discovered why I have been such a big bloated bitch for the last couple of weeks. To help with digestion and bloating us vegans turn to kombucha and I had switched to a different brand than I usually purchase because it tastes so much better. I failed to notice that this new brand adds sugar. 9g per cup. Sugar causes bloating so if my calculations are correct I just need to never buy this brand again and my body will return to normal? #randomproblems
Last updated July 09, 2019
One Angry Dwarf ⋅ July 09, 2019
Duuude, I've tried the whole "anxiety and excitement are the same chemical responses, therefore I'm excited and not anxious!!!" thing so many times and I just can't get it to work. I know some folks who are very successful with that reframing stuff but DANG I HAVEN'T GOTTEN A HANDLE ON IT YET.
You WILL be fine though! And if you're anything like me, you'll feel like, mondo better after taking this first step. This shit's hardly ever as scary as I predict it to be.
GOOD LUCK!