Toxic Masculinity. in Phoenix
- April 25, 2019, 5:25 a.m.
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Yep. That’s been my downfall. I’ve always been attracted to the wrong brand of masculinity.
Repeating the same actions and expecting different results over and over again is the definition of insanity.
I was insane. Fucking insane. Literally out of my mind with mental illness so powerful, so consuming, that I was attracted to the very thing that was my downfall. Every. Single. Fucking. Time.
I am no longer insane. I have seen what real masculinity looks like. Oh, you guys. It’s so beautiful. It’s a warm blanket, it’s the sun on your face, it’s a cool breeze on a warm day. It’s healthy and good for you and doesn’t require conditions or compromise of yourself.
Oh, it’s just damn nice.
Also, I have a date on Sunday with a guy I have never met. Started talking to him a couple of weeks ago, we were supposed to meet, he cancelled, and I thought that was the end of it. He texted me tonight and asked me out again, so what the hell, I’m game.
But if I detect even a hint of toxicity, I’m out of there. It’ll be in a public place where I have many friends on staff, so it’s all good. What’s the worst that can happen? I get a drink out of the deal and my friends won’t let me get stupid. I hope. I’ll have to call a pre-game meeting or something to let everyone know not to let me get stupid.
Deleted user ⋅ April 25, 2019
Though you may not see it, my masculinity is in all ways perfect.
JenJenSleepyHead ⋅ April 25, 2019
It’s quite eye opening once you see the difference between toxic and real masculinity, isn’t it?!
Have fun on your date!
Superposition ⋅ April 28, 2019
The date is tonight, isn't it? I hope it's fun! I hope he's cool. I can see it all now though, even if he's not THE ONE or even A one, he's going to be a level up from the norm...I dunno, no matter what happens, I think this is going to be something great.
🌈 JustWillow 🦄 Superposition ⋅ April 28, 2019
He cancelled AGAIN! But, it's family related, and family is always first in my book, so I'll perhaps consider another date in a future.
Also, he is not the man I've written about here. This date is just a guy I met through a dating app. He was the only one who didn't message me a bunch of "Hey beautiful" superficial shit. He actually started a conversation with me. And he's kinda cute in his pics, so... Also, I have nothing at all to lose at this point. I'm pretty open to just about anything as long as it carries a healthy energy.
Superposition 🌈 JustWillow 🦄 ⋅ April 29, 2019
But if that mother fucker cancels again, kick him to the curb, family or not.