Hiding in Docs in Depression

Torn open
For the world to see
Heart broken
It’s always me

I was wrong
I always am
Soul crushing
Door slammed

I want it back
What we lost
Twisted stomach
What’s the cost?

I can’t do better
Than I’ve done
Sobbing. Crying.
Tell no one

Hide it all
Kiss it goodbye
Suck it up
I’ll be fine

On the outside
Inside I die
Can’t stop thinking
Try to try

I’m not enough
You tell me different
Can’t give up
I don’t believe it

You gave away
To her our secrets
I get to pay
But not to keep it

With my soul
And my confidence
Shattered, gaping
Have I lost it?