Back in I Never Felt So Low

So I haven’t written in a while.

I’m sorry.

Life got so out of control. I’m doing a bit better now.

Updates:

Me and MJ broke up for good. Still friends.
I am dating two new girls: Cory and Mag

Yes, I’m polyam. Yes they know about each other.

Mag is 23
Cory is 29

I have a thing for Canadians and its a problem! I live so away. BUT they are both really loving.

I actually sexted with Cory twice. I haven’t had a chance to do that much since MJ. It was amazing. I have to admit I am still in love with MJ but if she isn’t feeling it then there is nothing I can do ya know? So I kinda just go with it and we are best friends. Everything she went through and everything we went through… I dunno. I just hope she doesn’t hate me for it all.

We are fine I think? She has a new “bf” and I use that lightly. Cause the guy is a pig and their relationship is not good. I’m trying to get her to get away from him. She could and should do better.

He is a creepy guy who is just … ew. He sexualized her without her consent BEFORE they dated and she hated that about him. So what the hell? When we hang out, she doesn’t talk to me like she once did. It is really bumming me out.

So I don’t know what to do about that situation.

I have men messaging me asking me to show off their dicks or to see mine. Like buzz tf off bro. if i wanna see dick, i got the internet. I don’t need to see your dick. Plus they never fucking respect the fact that I am ASEXUAL!!! I love sex but on MY TERMS