not less stressful in Second 1st

I was bad off Saturday. i had a watering mouth till noon. They had a “Holiday” dinner for us. It was Mexican food. Luckily the chips weren’t salted so I had some Pico (150mg), chips (0) and sour cream (15). i them broke and though I was excited just to have a little of it I went overboard and had some queso cheese (912) :( . I expect to feel that later today/tomorrow. The machine was down most of the day so I laid out a plan for our Christmas at home.

Friday night we had to switch times/day for dinner. It’s today. Rocky called his mom and asked her to pull her Turkey and ham to defrost. Yesterday I did the rest of the defrosting for the turkey in a cold water bath..... never doing that again. i cooked the turkey and we cut it up last night. I cut a tone of veggies. Some for the snack tray some for the sandwiches..... yeah if I didn’t say we are having sandwiches. Massive deli amazing ones. Anyways.... I have a ham to cook today and I need to make bread for me.... plus clean house before everyone gets here.

I did the best I could with breakfast (45) so that I can splurge a little at lunch.

The Valium at night seems to help but I still have to get right to the meds in the morning. I almost had to hit the bucket again yesterday but I think I was doing too much. That will happen again this morning.

I have to do all the dishes I made yesterday. I need the pan I cooked the turkey in to cook the ham. i don’t own a roaster pan so I couldn’t cook them at the same time. The ham is just as big as the dang turkey was so I’ve got to get it in as soon as I can this morning. For the bread I think I’ll just make a loaf in the machine, instead of the rolls I usually make. That way I don’t have to mess with it except to cut a few slices once it’s cooled and all.

I have to make at least one trip to the store today because .... well I made an onion dip with Sour Cream and Mrs. Dash..... and it’s too .... too peppery? .... it sucks.... so I’m tossing it. Instead we made ranch dressing last night to give it a shot and today I’m going to put some of the ranch mix in some sour cream and see how that works out. I did get some french onion dip in case it doesn’t but then I can’t eat much (if any) of it and veggies are going to be the bulk of my intake today so it would be nice to have a dip I can eat.

breakfast is over and the pile of dishes ain’t gonna wash itself.....