Another Saturday... in 2018

My everything hurts! Just fuck my uterus right now. I’ve pretty much laid in bed all day.

My house is a wreck. I have a long list of things that need doing, but my motivation is in the negative. I haven’t eaten anything since lunch yesterday. When I got home yesterday I discovered that the dogs had knocked my package of oreos off my nightstand and some combination of them and the pigs ate my fucking oreos. There was at least half the package left too.

I’m not sure where to go from here. I really can’t afford ivf right now. I could talk to my parents, but I have a hard time spending money that isn’t mine on something that may or may not work.

I decided to not text F this weekend and see if he bothers to text me. I kinda doubt it. I asked him the other day what we were doing. I mean, we’ve been hanging out and messing around for 4 months. He hasn’t done anything to change his situation. I don’t like feeling like just someone’s side chick who doesn’t actually mean anything.

I’ve been thinking about trying to write a book or do something creative. I need an outlet. I’ve also been thinking about trying an anti-inflammatory diet. I know I eat too many carbs, but I’m just sick of hurting all the time. I am going on Tuesday to have an SI joint injection and I’m hopeful that it will help. But trying the anti-inflammatory thing means grocery shopping and lots of meal prep. My bff may do it with me. It’s just more difficult because she works 2nd shift, so the only time we have is her off days on Tuesday/Wednesday. I need to do something though. Anyone have any experience?