CS shutdown. in Second 1st

Got an email earlier this week form Color Street about how I haven’t sold enough to stay a stylist. I know, I expected this. So I had been thinking about what to post to my VIP group in FB.

Mom texted me about how she needs to get some more. I explain to her I’m going to close it down. She asked if I could come see her for lunch tomorrow. She said we’d have it at her house and she’d like to get out and redo her name on her bank account. I had signed papers so that if something happened to her I could take care of that.... and I will need to do that again when she changes her name on the account.

I posted. I’m taking what I have to mom’s when I go down .... posting what’s left to see if anyone wants any when I get back ..... and offering Misty the rest for a steep discount to be rid of it. I will likely continue to order from her when I can because I LOVE them but it’s not something I can do right now. Everything is uncertain. Everything is chore like on most days.

Rocky says maybe I’ll want to give it another go if I wasn’t working at all. Well hopefully that will be a good long time before I don’t have a choice and have to not work. It’s a progressive disease so it logically could (and probably will) happen. Color Street doesn’t make me money or bring me joy TRYING to sell it. So it’s something that is not hard to cut out of my life. It is, for sure, something that could bring me more stress if I was more serious with it but i would never make enough doing it to not have a regular paycheck so ..... there is that. I’m content to go through these motions.

Rocky got a call back about the gas station thing. He’s filling out the application online now. Then attaching his resume and setting up an interview! I’m so hopeful. I worry about what we will lose if I lose my job and if we can get things that need to be paid off done before I have no choice. $7 more an hour would help out on both counts..... and he’d get to make his own hours.

Had to talk to mom about my diet restrictions and told her I would sit and eat lunch with her and chat but that I would bring my own food. That is something I wanted to avoid that I will not be able to. I screwed myself once this week with Krystals. I don’t want to risk lunch being high so I’ll bring my own. I apologized but mom says she understands and she’ll see me then. I hope so. I’m gonna make bagels again. I really liked those and they were decently easy to do (with dough being fixed by the machine). Then I’ll make mayo and a tuna fish salad. Then put my chips and Color Street t hings in the car so I don’t forget them.

I made pickles last night. i had more cucumbers than space in the jar.... I also had more “brine” than I needed. So I put the extra cucumbers and “brine” in a plastic container to sit over night and eat on whenever and they taste good :) so I’m really looking forward to the pickles when they are ready.

It looks like if I put a list on the fridge of things to do (just a few 3-4) they get seen and done. We just measured the attic entry hole to get some plywood up there and make it useable for box storage. I’m hopeful for a trip to Lowe’s soon.