Well lately my mood has been up and down. Last night I went to this shitty scene party--it was so lame. So I decided to call up Andrea and see if she wanted to come because Margot said she was leaving and I didn't want to stay there with just Jimmy and them because they were annoying me and I didnt want to leave because there was nothing else to do. But I ended up picking Andrea up and then the cops came to the party so I just took Jimmy and them back and dropped them off. We went back to my house and we were super bored waiting for my parents to go to bed so we could sneak out. I started feeling all moody like I was manic before and my depression was starting to seep in or sumthing. I kept on thinking of Matt H and Craig and that put me in an even worse mood. I hate how my medicine has stopped me from dwelling on everything EXCEPT them two when they are the ones I NEED to stop dwelling on. ugh....then me and andrea drove by Matt H's house and she wanted me to call him so finally I just did--it went to voicemail and I left him a message and he NEVER frikin called me back. Watever im so sick of just wondering why the fuck he totally stopped talking to me. We went to Dennys and met up with everyone and I was just sitting there with no appitite staring off into space cuz i was in such a pissy mood. Everyone kept asking me wat was wrong and i was just thinking like ugh just leave me the fuck alone. Margot and Andrea spent the night and I kept just listening to songs and crying or I'd listen to what they say and cry then I made this abstract picture and finally I fell asleep.
I woke up at 1:15 PM today and cleaned my room a bit, worked on some mail-outs for my dad, got ready and finally left the house to hang out with andrea later in the late afternoon. We went to the Wicca store and then to Downtown claremont. I wanted to see if Chris was working in podges today but he wasnt After that she dropped me off and went to go pick up devon and I had my art class where I started a new painting that is going to take me a long ass time to finish lol. After that Andrea picked me up and we went to CK cafe (open mic night) with devon and his friend jeremiah. They are both super cool. We got bored and started walking around and then we decided to drive around.......we went cruising down this big hill thats fun to drive on and then Kyle from CPK called Andrea and told him about this party tomorrow night and i was like super suprised he called. I really really want to go and see everyone. I hope Matt H is there.... Me and drea both have to work but she better go to it and take me!!! lol Then we were driving back from the big hill and we saw these stupid bro's driving there truck cutting us off and shit so we cut them off and we looked over and saw it was Ricki babb with her stupid bro and maricris were her stupid bro....ew they are such bro hoes. we kept flipping them off and they were flippin us off then we raced them and were cutting eachother off. It was so funny though. they told us to pull over and we were just like Ummm no thanks fuckers...then they finally turned down a street pshhh they are SO LAME. I really felt like hanging out with New matt tonite (matt s) so i was texting dan and he gave me matts number and then finally matt called me and he wants to hang out this weekend ahhhh he is so awesome...i told him i mite go to kyles party tomorrow and invited him. so we better go together itll be so awesome. i totally miss hanging out with him
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