Well the other day at work I saw Matt and I was like can i have a hug? and he was like sure and we hugged and just talked like the whole time at work because me and him have sorta been not talking to eachother lately and I hated that. I was just trying to do what Craig said and stay away from Matt but fuck craig, matt is the only guy that can get me over him and I know that because he did for like a week. But ne waz, I thought maybe matt and miki broke up but andrea said they didnt ugh. So I asked Matt to get me sum coke and he said he'd do it with me because I will go insane if i do it by myself cuz I will want to talk alot. So I figure im going to do it and then tell him everything how I want him to be single because I know thats what he really wants and to just do it for himself and tell him how I like him alot still and just everything and hopefully he will realize that is the thing to do because I know he is not happy staying with Miki.
Well anyways this week has been lame now that me and drea havent been hanging out with the crustys lately Me and her were so frustrated at boys we made this rock people up at look out point that resembled all the guys that fucked us over and of course some cops come up and ask us what we are doing cuz it was past curfew and we told them and I was like HEY at least we arent doing drugs! and the cops were cool and let us throw the rocks off the cliff to release our anger and let us go without giving us a ticket or contacting our parents. I still think a city curfew is stupid though its our fucking lives. Ugh watever...
Yesterday me and drea hung out with the ryans and of course the whole time they were making fun of us for being vegan and trying to get us to have sex with eachother so finally we just left. Then last night I hung out with Margot and the whole time she just wanted me to go fuck this guy sean and I was just thinking like "I only want craig " And his away message said "chillin in a spa rite now" And i can only imagine with who..HIS FUCKING EX GIRLFRIEND ugh i bet they were like fucking in there. I HATE HER. I was super sad last night and I was reading Joshs website guest entries from people and that just made me more sad and then Chris IMed me and told me he would talk to me and to come over so I went over to his house at like 11:30 and we sat out front of his house talking and I realize Chris totally reminds me of Josh. He says the things Josh would say to make me feel better and he's a cool guy and there for me when I need him. The only thing that bugs me about him is he is kinda stuck up and paranoid that his gf will find out he is friends with me. its like wtf...but oh well at least he is there for me when I need him. So we talked for like a half hour then he had to go inside and I went home and had 2 dreams about craig. One was I was driving to his house and snuck inside to read his journals and i was coming back downstairs and these 2 girls and a guy were coming up stairs and i ran out and took a scooter and started riding the scooter and i saw kyle driving by me and he dropped off craig and they were like "wtf were u doing in craigs house?" and i was like "ummm umm i wasnt inside" and the guy was like "yes she was we saw footprints" and i was all embarrased. and the second dream was i was talking to craig online and he said "rescue me" and i was like "ok lets just leave together rite now!" and i dotn really remember ne more about it. well ne waz scotti is coming rite now so im gonna go wait for her..toodles journal
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