"Everyone I love goes away in the end."
Well yesterday at work was one of the most awkward days of my life. This girl I've known for awhile told me she was bisexual like a year ago. Me and her used to be good friends back in the day and in 10th grade we talked once in awhile because we had a class together. But I found her MySpace and I started talking to her again and she's really cool. She came in and visited me at work yesterday and I told Kyle and Matt how she is bisexual and they were like "Yea she likes you." And I was just like nooo she doesn't. But I don't know. She walked all the way from her house to my work to see me. And she turned vegan when she found out that I like vegans lol. So the guys were like "yea you should experiment with her." I was just like wtf I'm straight lol. I don't even know if she likes me or not. So me and her were like chilling in the back of my work and then my ex boyfriend Steve comes in. I was just like thinking -holy-shit can this night get anymore awkward? Well then Kyle was like Natalie you can just go and chill with her go ahead and clock out. So I did and took her home but I felt bad for just leaving Kyle to make all the dough so I came back and helped him. Then me him eddie miki and matt went to Eddies and got drunk and of course I was just talking about how much I love Craig and they were like Natalie dont like a guy like him. And I was just like dude u cant just STOP liking a guy all fast. Esp since i like him sooooo much. I seriously almost started crying when I was at work and he told me he is going to be leaving CPK in less then a month. UGH what am i going to do? He also said that Adam is going to be working ALOT more from now on since he is graduating college and that means everyone is going to get alot less hours and he is taking over all the manager shifts so only him and Christiane are going to be managers from now on. I dont think I can deal with that. Kyle said he is leaving and probably moving to San Diego. Eddie is moving to Ontario. Idk about Matt. Its just like CPK is falling apart. Its not going to be the same anymore so I dont know if I am going to continue working there. Well after I got back from Eddies last night I went online and told Craig about my awkward night and he was like "you should just experiment with her you never know you could like it." But thats just gross to me and id feel weird. Then he was telling me how he has experimented with a lot of guys and gave one a hand job and liked it and stuff. And I was just like well thats you. Then he said he likes experimenting new things and doing anything and everything and I was just thinking UGH then do me! experiment with me! hahaha Its not fair. How can he do all these crazy illegal things, say he is up for anything blablabla yet can't do anything with a seventeen year old. It's not like im going to go run and tell the cops. Oh yea and when I was at eddies, matt and miki left and it was just me eddie and kyle and eddie kept saying "now i just wish there was a girl rite here laying next to me" and kyle was like go natalie and iwas like wtf lol eddie would NEVER do anything with a girl under 18 he says that all the time. And kyle was like noo believe me he would. But I couldnt just like make a move on eddie especially since i know hed be all weirded out haha. and then when kyle was taking me home he was like "jeez natalie u could have had eddie tonite" hahha yea riteeeeeeeeeee but yea today is my only day off of work. i am so tired i have gotten 7 hours of sleep in the past two days. Everything has just been so confusing and stressful and im dying knowing Craig is leaving soon.
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