Correlation in The Truth (As I Know It)

There is a definite correlation between my dreams and my mindset as I make my way thru the day upon waking. If I sleep soundly and deeply, with little or no recollection of dreaming, my day goes fairly smoothly and I feel pretty good about myself. If I have a restless night, with one or more intense dreams that I can recall vividly once I’m awake, I can almost guarantee that I will have a moody, unhappy day. It’s like my brain has a purge cycle- and it’s hard for me to put consecutive good days together. It’s been this way for as long as I can remember. I sometimes feel like my dreamworld is actual reality, and my waking life is simply projections of my subconscious. My dreams often feel more real than reality itself does. I’m not sure why this is, or how to modify it. I’m at the mercy of my unconscious mind once I’m asleep. I’ve poked around into information about lucid dreaming a few times, but I don’t really see how it’s possible to control the dream state. I do think this correlation is a symptom of the stagnation I wrote about yesterday. I don’t think my brain is getting exercised enough during my waking hours, and like an under stimulated toddler, it spends the night kicking and thrashing at me rather than settling down for a restful sleep. Every night is like a spin of the fortune wheel in the casino of my mind- I never know what I’m in store for.

Last updated May 10, 2018