Today is the Day in My Fucking Feelings

And it’s going to happen again and again. Has to happen…

Kidding.
I’m slightly terrified to show up tonight.
Not because of a potential fight.
But because J might destroy my heart.

But I’ve waited for this.
And I’ve worked it all out so I could go.
I been doing almost nothing but working and math.

I’m supposed to have a support system before I go tonight but who do I talk to?
I’ve been aloof with everyone lately.
Who would understand?
Who do I even trust.
Guess I’m just hoping for the best.

At least I will have someone to talk to.
Just not confide in.

Send your prayers with me tonight guys.