It's been a while in formless

For a multitude of reasons I guess

I have been lost in a sea of my own thoughts
tangled
paralyzed almost

Open Diary let me re-download my old entries
and it was like a time capsule for my early 20s

and this person who was so unsure
so anxious and angsty
was talking to me
in a way I had never heard before

my presence on Open Diary was more solid than here
I had to guess which boy it was about in each entry

but I am officially going to grad school
and so the next chapter begins

love and solanum
sayornis