3/5/2004 in Victim of Society

wow its so fuking weird how fast your mood can change. i was having a pretty happy day up until we were sitting at pizza and stuff. i started to feel a knot form in my stomach and i guess the reality of josh moving finally set in. and i stared at him from across the table and realized that he wasnt going to be around much anymore. his happy face, funny laugh, the little marshmellow man josh. i realized i wasnt going to have him there to walk me to class, be project partners, hang out every weekend. then i looked over at andrea and she started tearing up and we had to go outside and then we just started crying. then we wiped away our tears and went back inside. everyone was acting all immature and shit, and me and drea just sat there until the bill came and we all went outside. me drea and josh took a picture by the door and then she and i both hugged him. i had to walk away fast because i started crying again and this time it was really hard for me to stop. i still cant believe that he wont be going to bonita anymore. and now im starting to cry again. i wish he could have just stayed for the rest of the skool year. this just fucking sux