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My life is uninteresting - which is probably part of the reason I don't write.

Work is going fine.

They make me feel awkward though cause they eat out like EVERYDAY [my director, associate director, PM receptionist (I'm the AM receptionist) and the owner]. They like to order out - they take turns paying - and they talk about work stuff and non work stuff in the director's office. I don't order out - ever - and so I don't really have a reason to stop my day and sit in their office while they eat.

They actually say I work TOO much and want me to sit there and talk with them. I get that - they want us to all be close and stuff but ... I don't see a reason to sit there and joke around when I have things to do. And they all have things to do - I dunno. Maybe I just feel my things are more urgent? Maybe I just like to get things done?

And I've told them - I'm broke. I can't order out. The school serves lunch and usually I eat what they make and I'm happy with it. And if I don't like it I wait till I get home. Maybe I should make lunches but I'm lazy and don't have all that much groceries. It's sad but we shop pretty minimally.

ANYWAY I've now been working there 7 months and they've been hounding me about the lunch thing. I don't think they get how broke I am - and even if I wasn't broke I wouldn't spend $10 a day on outside food. I'd just buy more groceries and bring cool lunches to work.

Well. I guess that's my biggest complaint so all in all, it isn't a bad job.

I have to loosen up and open up more to them. They all talk more on a friendly level than me. I've never had a female boss - nor one who actually wants to be my friend. There's always a barrier between bosses and everyone else. It's just making me feel awkward. I'm super friendly and will talk to anyone but I don't talk intimately about my life to just anyone. And the PM receptionist I KNOW is a gossip so I'm just wary about talking openly.

UMM Teach is still .... being negative on my job. It snowed today and they had an early dismissal and she was talking to me about how they shouldn't have even opened and had people come in and I was kinda like - there's 13 kids in the entire school, the boss bought us lunch, I had a truck available to drive and I need the $$ so.... I really can't bitch that they opened!

The drive home was scary tho - the roads weren't plowed - or not plowed well - and I was sliding ALOT TOWARDS other cars - it was very scary.

I was talking to Teach and she said she's thinking about being a nurse - which requires going back to school for a whole new profession which is scary and also expensive and she's broke. I told her that there might be aid or funds for unemployed / broke people who want to go to school but I dunno if she'll really look into it.

This weekend Shauna threw a party for no reason - just invited friends over for pizza and drinks. She prob spent $300 on a party for like 13 people and it was really fun. I was very proud of the fact that I controlled my drinking and didn't get sick. I drank water in between drinks and ate lots of bready pizza to soak everything up and barely had a hangover on Sunday.

AND even though I ate and drank I was within my calories so I wasn't anxious about the eating and drinking either.

Poor Shauna slipped on snow/ice in her parking lot today and hurt her knee again - like she did at my wedding. Ouch!

Before my wedding we were both exercising and the summer before that we were on shakes and stuff and we were both losing weight and now we've both gained everything back and I know that's part of the reason she keeps hurting her knees - her weight is too much for them. I wish we could get back into working out together but #1 I then hate working out with her #2 she already belongs to a different, more expensive gym.

I think I've lost 7lbs this month by controlling my eating alone. Not dramatic but better than gaining 7lbs.

Me and Will are doing fine. We had a good weekend. I was actually 'in' the mood this weekend and pretty much had my way with him - and he walked around with his chest puffed out all day like he was The Man. But I like him feeling that way - I know men need to feel sexy too.

Went to Ikea with my parents this weekend also. My mom is now bothering me to buy a house. She has no idea that we have no saving and no plans to have kids so we don't have the means or motivation to move.

My sister's husband's grandfather died and left them a buncha money and they're thinking about buying a house so now my mom thinks I should get one too.

Maybe later - much later - right now I can barely afford groceries. I probably put about $300 towards my credit card a month. If I didn't do that then I'd be able to afford groceries and new glasses and put savings towards an awesome cruise. The only bright life in my life is planning an awesome cruise. Prob for May of next year.

I wasn't rooting for anyone in the superbowl so I don't care who lost.

Soon I should be on Will's health care and then I can get on Depo [birth control]. Good bye periods - and condoms. I hope it works the same as it did when I was last on it in 2007. I had NO periods, no cramps and I didn't have to use condoms and had no pregnancy scares or anything like that. As much as I shouldn't say so - I know sex will be better without the interruption of condoms - even more so for him cause he doesn't have to worry about holding it or pulling out and I don't have to make him put one on.

For someone that doesn't want kids I'm almost always the one telling him to put one on.

I'm trying to write a lot and update on my life cause I've really been lacking but I can't think of anything else to say - ask me questions if you want LOL