I Shouldn't... in 2018

… but I really miss him. I haven’t actually spoken to him since before my surgery. So more than 4 weeks… same with texts… he never responded the night before surgery and I have refused to text him since. It’s not like he’s texted me… I shouldn’t miss him or want him or anything. But I fucking do… I want to cry… but there’s no one to really talk to… they’re sick of hearing it.