Push in Current Events
- Oct. 15, 2017, 8:24 p.m.
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Out of nowhere my anxiety has returned and I do not care that it is back. I just realized that I had let it make all my decisions this week. All the wrong ones. The easy ones. The do nothings.
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I know it was triggered by me having to deal with my old boss for 3 minutes. I got to dread that for a couple hours first but my mind had slipped into some old habits. Habits like worrying about if what I do will be good enough. Beating myself up for the things I can’t do so well. The fear of checking my phone expecting petty texts. The store I am at now was the butt of all jokes and now I have turned it around and I outshine my old boss. I should be twirling on this hater and not crippled with anxiety. I ain’t been eating. I ain’t been working out. I ain’t been doing nothing. I will use this anxiety to motivate me. I have nothing to fear right now. I have been on a breakaway all year.
Superposition ⋅ October 15, 2017
I'm glad to hear you are leaning into the curve so fiercely. Anxiety is quite the terrible passenger. I wish you all the best.
KissOfLife! ⋅ October 16, 2017
I hope it leaves you alone soon. I'm glad you recognize it quickly. It's put me in hospital twice and doctors were just like, "I dunno what's wrong with him." I hate how controlling it is. All the best.
~Octopussy~ ⋅ November 12, 2017