Well summer is almost over, fall is right around the corner. With that being said, many changes are occurring at the Fern. One of which is that people are leaving. People that I have spent hours on end with since moving here. People that helped me get through being the new girl around here. One person in particular, Jon. He just texted everyone today letting us know he was hired at Ford to be their newest salesman. I am very excited for him! But at the same time I am really sad he is leaving. He says we will still hang out, but everyone says that when they move on. I don't know, it just sucks. It's not just him that is leaving, so many people are. V is going to be the only person left that I actually really like at the Fern, and she has a second job so it's not like she's even there a lot.
Another change that is going to happen is no golf. This isn't Cali, where everyone golfs year round. This is Massachusetts. Cold weather, snow storms= no golf. Meaning no members. The reason it is open year around is because the dining room will still be open so members can spend their monthly food minimum. Also, bridal showers, baby showers, etc will still be going on. That means I will only be working dinner shifts and functions. Blah!!! I'm REALLY thinking about looking for another job, but where? I want to keep the Fern, so that means at both jobs I will have limited availability, never a good thing. Also, I basically only have food experience and I am sick of working in the food industry. If I can land an office job that would be great, especially in the winter. But I don't have experience. No experience=no consideration these days.
All I want is to get moving along with my OT schooling and even that seems so far away and hard to reach. I am scared, frustrated, annoyed. I have been making two grand a month, and I know that is going to go down drastically when fall comes. I still have mounds of debt to get rid of, Jasper's leg still needs to be amputated, rent paid, groceries, gas, ahhh. I need a job where I get a secure check every two weeks. I'm sick of relying on gratuity and never knowing what exactly I'm going to be making each pay check. It's very stressful. I'm 24 and I feel old enough to have a "real" job, yet I don't have the opportunity. I need to wait around. Hope. Study. Apply. I don't know. I hate uncertainty in the financial aspect of life. I feel myself getting older and older, yet nothing seems to change. I still have the life of an 18 year old. When will this change???
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