July 14th, 2012 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"

Things have been so tough since I have gotten married. Most of the time I want to run away from it all and say fuck it. It's always up and down, and I miss the easy life we had in Washington. We got into a huge fight the other night and I was seriously looking for a room to rent somewhere around here. It took us until 3 in the morning, but we finally settled the argument and I felt much better. He has been better since then and it really does take arguments like that to make us both realize what we have with each other and what we don't want to lose. I love him and all the things he does for me, and I may complain a lot, but he really is a great guy when it comes down to it. I need to just be thankful for what I have and stop wishing he was something else. I'm lucky he is such a great husband and isn't abusive, addicted to drugs, lazy, etc. We may have a ton of things to work on in our marriage, but at least we have a marriage to work on.