September 27th, 2010 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"

What I am going to miss about California is all the new age/spiritual shops I have gotten so used to dropping in on every now and then. Most of them are in Claremont, especially my favorite one. The lady there has been there for years and is truly gifted in readings. I had my cards read at the fair for twenty five bucks and was horribly disappointed so I felt obligated to get a re-do with the lady I trust knows her stuff. It cost a bit more, but totally worth it. The place is in an old school house that they converted to a business center. They had to move to three different spots in that building because they have re-done the place so many times. I liked when they were in the basement because there was an eerie cool feeling about it but now they are on the first floor and it is also nice. When I walked in I asked if she had time for a reading and luckily she did. As soon and I stared picking cards, I smelt the smell that I always associate with my grandma who died about ten years ago, vanilla. I smiled to myself and asked Danalle my first question. It was regarding my big move to Washington. I felt much better talking to her about it and getting advice from the cards because now more than ever I know I am doing the right then. She said I am hearing from others that I live in a fantasy world and they think I am making a horrible decision. She saw jealousy from my own mother which is right on. She said I'd find a place to live that would cost around six hundred a month, which is the exact price of a studio I have been looking at online. Then she said I would for sure get into Evergreen State College so I am hoping that is true! She said I'd find a job but only because I will take whatever I can get. She said I should pack light and I'd meet people there that will donate things to me like a bed, etc. She also said February/March is a great time for me to go and that I was lucky I was getting out before the big earthquake. Then we [of course] talked about Justin. She said I broke his heart and he still has a huge grudge against me and a lot of anger and even if I try to send him a nice message, he only wants to fight right now. She said the only thing I could do to salvage anything is to send him a care package and that is actually a good idea. She said if he still doesn't respond nicely to that then at least I know I tried everything I could. She also said he can feel my energy still and once I stop thinking about him all the time, he will suddenly start coming around chasing me. The timing between him and I was completely off, which is what another psychic told me before too and is totally accurate. Also, it might take months before anything between us is okay again, and I pretty much understand that already so it wasn't a big shock. Then I talked to her about my sobriety and my DUI and she said I was definitely not an alcoholic but that I was very traumatized by the whole thing and that I would never ever drink and drive again. She said I would feel guilt if I ever tried to drink again, even when there was a designated driver and that it could take time before I was okay with it. Overall, it was a great reading and totally made up for that horrible reading I got by that fake psychic at the fair. Now I need to think about this care package thing. I will definitely wait until his back in the states at his homebase before sending him anything. And I won't write him a long letter or anything. Just a simple note that says, miss you. Or something like that. Blah. I don't know. All I know is as much as I try to fight the fact that I don't love him and tell myself I can get over him, I really don't think I can. I might as well do something to try to salvage our friendship/relationship if he is going to be in my mind this often.