10:50pm
I’m not going to finish this tonight so I’m not going to bother getting real technical. There are just words in this overactive head of mine and I need to get them out.
I finally responded to the client’s message. I was very straightforward and honest about it all. I told him that I didn’t want it to come off the wrong way, or to assume what his intentions were, but my life was kinda crazy right now personally. I said I wanted to make new friends but anything more than that wasn’t possible. I said that I wanted to be upfront about it and hoped it made sense.
It didn’t take him long to respond. He said that it made total sense, it was all good, and he understood. Then about 10 minutes later he said that he wanted to apologize if he came on too strong. I told him that he didn’t have to apologize. Honesty was just a policy I had and sometimes I should keep it to myself.
We went on to exchange several messages where he said that everything was ok. He admitted that he did kinda pop up outta no where and he probably should have stopped by in person. He said I seemed like a “cool girl” from when we sat down together. He also mentioned that we’d gone to school together but he honestly couldn’t remember seeing me around. Which was a relief because I don’t remember him at all. So I asked if he was sure we graduated in the same class. It’s a small town. There weren’t that many people. He ended up saying that he actually graduated a year after I did and that makes way more sense. Then he sent the last message where he rambled about staying at work late and I don’t know what else.
You know what’s already bothering me though? He has terrible grammar. =\
That’s like one of my biggest pet peeves ever and he is so bad at it. Like that last message was almost incoherent. And I get that it could be autocorrect or whatever. But it’s bad and I can’t help but cringe. Maybe he’s typing too fast or something. He should slow down and proofread! geez.
And it just reminds me of TF. I feel almost bad for thinking this, but it caught me off guard when TF turned out to have such great spelling/grammar. I honestly didn’t expect that. I don’t know why. He’s not dumb. But he’s got that like macho bad boy facade going on and it makes it seem like he’d be the person that would screw up the use of there/their/they’re. I never told him that, but I was certainly impressed.
sigh I’m never going to get over this am I? He’s still so attractive to me. I miss him. This isn’t nearly enough of a distraction…
I’d like to be friends with the client. He seems nice enough. I’ve already mentioned that I know we have a ton in common. I was recently complaining about needing more “redneck” friends to do outdoorsy things with and he would totally fit that bill. I’m not sure he could look past his interest in me though and be friends. And I’m not willing to get involved with another person who doesn’t get that.
Tomorrow I have plans to meet up with Y and her husband. I don’t know exactly what we’re doing but she mentioned ice cream and exploring, and a new beer place opening, and maybe some car stuff. All of my magic words I told her. haha. I’m going to take a change of clothes in case I drink too much but I don’t plan on taking it that far. I just need an escape for a moment.
I lied. I think I will just post this and anything else can go in a new entry later. Either that or it’ll just sit in the drafts folder forever.
rose.
11:06pm
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