My sister in Second 1st

My sister, because I’m sure there has not been an entry about her it far too long. So much so that if I were to tell you what my mom just called me about it would not be understood.

If you don’t know/remember/just started reading/whatever..... my sister was in a bad car accident when she was 17. She was in and out of a semi-coma for 6 months. In this state you can basically only open your eyes. There were shifts for care in my family home with diapers and trach tube cleaning.... There were many trips to Vanderbilt Hospital (largest around an hour and 15 mins away also attached to a very large college) with major infections (spleen, liver) we eventually had to sign her into a nursing care center because there weren’t enough willing bodies to take care of her with the kind of attention she needed. Neither mom nor I were able to change her alone. My brother couldn’t stand to look at her and I forgave him for that. Over the course of just a few weeks after putting her in NHC Lewisburg (and visiting everyday) she started to move more… started to talk.... started walking again. With the mind of a small child, learning to do everything from swallow to turning on a light.... from walking to bathing. The progress went rather well when she was there. Eventually she came home. She finished High School at 20 and went on to a for living school in Smyrna. It is specifically for those with mental instabilities in order to learn life skills such as reading instructions on a box of mac and cheese or balancing a checkbook. She met a guy there who dangled marriage over her head like a carrot for 4 years?..... she got pregnant at 28 and now we have my Nephew who will be 7 in 3 months.

Skip a ton of stupid, dramatic and irrelevant things that caused struggle that is over....

My sister lives with a guy and without Joshua (our mom has him). She can’t take her meds when she’s supposed to. She thinks she can “tweek” them on her own and she ends up not taking them all together for weeks. She has done it again. This is the third time. She loses all rational thought and goes on about how burning her skin with a frying pan will get her closer to God.... She’s stronger than Jesus. .... She is Jesus.... we will all see.. Mom says it’s worse this time she’s on the complete other side so she’s been saying anything to shock mom like “I wanna go home and suck my boyfriends dick”..... She tried to take her paper gown off and leave.... she’s in a mental hospital in Cookville .... it will take mom 2 1/2 hours to get there. She’s taking her some cloths in the morning. She called to ask if I could be there when Joshua gets off the bus. I wouldn’t have it any other way.

Mom says she’s really going to push to do the papers so that she can have Alicen’s (sister) rights pretty much so removed and we can find her a place where they can help her. Each time she does this the connections in her brain get more damaged. It’s harder and harder to be around her after she gets back on the meds..... then.... what for 6 months.... till she decides she doesn’t need them anymore and she back to here..... here… in a mental hospital talking about sacrificing animals to the devil and calling it Wicca..... saying she does it all the time.... she does not.... she just creates some alter persona suddenly.... It’s so frustrating.....

Luckily Joshua isn’t around this all the time.. … if ever.... and an awesome Aunt like me is so supper ready to rush down and get him off the bus.... do homework.... eat dinner.... brush teeth.... watch TV and read 25 books before bed because .... just one more lol.