ain't that a kick in the head in formless

it always surprises me
the way that people change
as you get to know them

nothing is like it’s initial impression

I keep a lot of things to myself
because I don’t have time to write
and I can’t say them out loud

and then there are bursts
when alcohol and emotions are mixed
but then it seems insincere

growing up is hard
but not in the ways I thought it would be

things are good
there is forward motion
nothing is set but many things are possible

and no one ever asks me what it is that I want
and sometimes I think it is because
they know they wont like the answer