Oh, Why Not in Book Four: Ichi-no-Tani 2017

Today I have posted 2 Political Articles… well… shared, really… and no personal articles. To be frank; this may be my new norm going forward. Who knows? There is very little way of knowing what is to be in my future… and this time, I’m excited about that prospect.

I may have stated some of this previously… if so, please disregard.

Yesterday, I called our current land lord. God, I hate Small Town Country Folky Business dealings. When I tell you that I am breaking contract and leaving the house early… yes, I appreciate a laid back and “that’s just fine” nature to it. But when I request that we go over move out details… a hand wave and “aw, I trust you” does NOT make me feel settled. Just boxing my stuff, leaving a key in the mail box, and vacating is not good procedure nor does it really feel like it satisfies requirements for legal vacating of a residence. I do not do well in Handshake Culture.

I also called 5 apartments.
(1) Apartments available second week of April. Later than we’d like; but we’ll still check them out. They require no appointments, so we’ll pop in over the weekend.
(2) Phone Message Machine. They have not called me back.
(3) Phone Message Machine that said “Please call during business hours.” Uhm… I was. So, what the hell?
(4) Guy said he is very exclusive about his tenants and he wouldn’t know what he had until later this week. May give him a call back on Friday
(5) Lady booked us for an appointment to look at their available floor plans. There is a 2 bedroom, 1 bathroom for north of 900; and a 3 bedroom 2 bathroom for 1250. OF COURSE I’d prefer the 3 bedroom, 2 bathroom apartment… especially after living in a 4 bedroom 2 bathroom house for almost a year… but Wife is firmly against the price. She has honestly said “I won’t pay more than 1,000 per month on anything.” Which… I appreciate her frugal nature. I really do. Especially as we don’t know what our financial future looks like. But currently? We have no debt and enough in the bank to buy a Tesla Model S. Now, I’m not saying we go out and spend to our heart’s content or do anything that would mean we are paying for more than we are getting in return… but taking a two story house in BFE and trying to fit it into a small space.... we’re going to need to get rid of a LOT of stuff (which I wouldn’t be thrilled with) or we’re going to need space to put it all. Besides the average cost of a 1 bedroom apartment in the city right now is $863. Average cost. I just… I love my wife’s desire to spend very little money but… I would hate to get super cramped up Apartment wise.

After work yesterday, I hit the treadmill and that’s about it until Wife came home not at all happy. Apparently, the store that offered her a job is now wondering if she can work in a different department. She doesn’t want to work in that department. So, now she’s all… up in arms. She doesn’t know if they will let her not be in that department; she doesn’t know if she will accept a different department, and mentioned that if she had to start over looking for a wal mart to transfer to; she may have to stay in Tiny Town through April. Thus necessitating me staying with my parents while starting work. And… I know. My Wife has sacrificed a lot following me from CF to DM to NE to TT and now back to DM. But throughout all of it; it really has been her choice to stay at Wal Mart and not go after anything else. So… Wal Mart offers you a full time spot that gets you back to DM so we can move and start jobs at the same time? Why are you being a brat? That might be harsh but… I am starting to lose patience with my wife on the whole Job Thing. She doesn’t like her job; but has been at Wal Mart for almost 15 years (in total). She doesn’t want to stay doing Wal Mart but never looks outside of Wal Mart for opportunities. When I encourage her, she throws an anxiety attack and states that she has no idea what she wants to do with her life and it “isn’t that simple; it isn’t that easy!” I’m to a point where I’m just thinking “Accept Wal Mart and embrace your life or leave Wal Mart and we’ll work on finding you something else.” It makes me wonder, and not for the first time, if she is even really capable of being happy about her life in any substantial way. But… that is for another time.

My today has been… equally meh. Again, several times throughout the night… Wife woke me up. So again at about 4 am, I said fuck it and left the bed. Got in to work… did some work and some court… got back to the office… Ran wants to play paper football. Huh. Oooookay. So… we’re just embracing that I don’t have to do anything? Okay! But… I will do work. And I will work to make the transition better. But other than that… okay?

I don’t know what tonight has in store. I may jog. I may ask my Wife if we can start packing the place up already. Or… likely… I’ll join my wife on the couch as she continues to watch hours of tv mindlessly.

This may seem like a bit of a harsh or depressing entry… but I really am excited for our move. I’ve already been contacted by 10 people offering to help and/or scheduling a hang out once we get settled. Seriously. People who want me around. It will be very nice to return to that!