I"m becoming someone I don't want to be. in Second 1st

He slept all day. I got up at 4:00 and he got up just after me. It was nice that he cleaned out the dishwasher and reloaded it while I was messing with the cat stuff and doing laundry but I also felt like… he screwed up my morning routine?.... I am a shitty person before coffee. I feel like he forces me to be a person I don’t like. I asked him this morning what time the gym opened. I hate that he has made me care if he goes to the gym. I didn’t care before. I only care now because he was all like “we can’t go anywhere because I want to go to the gym”..... it’s just after 5 now and he’s saying that he needs to get a shower and head out to the gym..... which feels backwards to me also.... he’s watching trash TV so it’s not likely to happen anytime soon. I feel horrible about how much I am frustrated with him. Randy used to tell me I was lazy because I didn’t do the house cleaning before a normal day. I liked to do a bit in the afternoon each day and on days off sleep as late as I could (10 ish). Now I can’t seem to sleep in and the amount Rocky sleeps just kills me. When I left Rocky and was out in Colorado with Karl he asked me like everyday if I had been to the gym or walked today. I couldn’t workout enough for him. Then again I wasn’t saying “we can’t.... until I go to the gym” ..... 5:15 still sitting watching TV. He just came in to check and see if I wanted a second cup of coffee.... I said “I thought you were taking a shower” He said “The dish washer and washer are running, it will be about another 20 minutes” at least he’s getting his workout cloths together now though.