K, so I got teary eyed last pm. K, so I was balling lol. I got lonely and started missing George... a lot. I don't know what it is. I could feel it coming on and I was actually wishing that Lou would text me so I wouldn't have to deal with it. He didn't and before long, I texted George. He was so very sweet about it. But that just made it even worse I think.
I was crying a lot about it again today. I also started realizing that there was something off with Lou. So that gave me something else to focus on today while doing all that laundry. It was a good thing. As it turns out, there was nothing really wrong with Lou. But I was happy for the distraction none the less. He is such a good man. I am genuinely happy to have him in my life! No matter how sad I may get about George, I still know that I am where I am supposed to be. I wouldn't trade anything with George for anything with Lou.
George is in my heart forever I'm sure. But Lou is really getting there. He is a good man. A really good man. I feel like God sent him to me himself. Or maybe Lou's wife guided us together. Maybe she saw that we needed each other. I am so grateful to have him in my life. He is so good for me. Thank you God for sending this man into my life!!!!