Another loss in Pridesafiordilabbra

So over the weekend another high school friend lost her battle with drugs. She overdosed on heroin at 34.

The friend who hung her herself had a a public wake this week her sister a good friend stayed at my parents house with her son. I wish I could have been there for her. The last month has been so shitty.

One person hangs herself valentines night. And less than a month later anothe of heroin overdose.

It is so fucking sad. All these people my age are dying. They were 33 and 34 plus the friend that died in a house fire last summer was the brother of the one who hung herself.

I have been asking my gods why is this happening to the people I went to school with. It’s not fair. I feel like shit some days wishing it was me and not them. I never expected to make it to 21. With my multiple suicide attempts. The latest two girls left behind young children. At least I don’t have any.

I haven’t cut in the last 4-5 days but I have been constantly drunk. Was sober this morning so went and got grain for the horses and got lunch at subway.