Commit or Acquit in 2016

Out trying to drive. No luck so far. I did my first couple Uber rides last night. Pretty similar to Lyft, though not as convenient. The first ride was a really cool and cute chick, probably should have asked for her number.

Somehow Chase took out money for a bunch of purchases I had made over the last week all on Monday. I thought I had 200 bucks, but nope, 20. Been trying to drive to get money til I get paid. Ugh. Bring on all the student loans. I’m tired of working and still being broke.

I was supposed to for reals go to coffee to meet Kaitlyn earlier. The first time she had to work late and I was sick, the second she was sick and slept through her alarm. She even said for sure she promised she would show up, and was really apologetic the second time. When I left work I saw she had texted saying her ex had contacted her and they were going to work things out. No apology, just that it would be our last conversation. Her Tinder is already gone too.

I should have known. I haven’t learned yet. The golden rule isn’t really a thing. Be patient, nice, understanding, keep your commitments. Just don’t expect that from anyone else. I’ve had enough lessons on dishonesty and transfornation since I moved up here. At this point, it’s my own fault. Being genuine just doesn’t work. I need to develop my edge, follow all the templates for talking to people online if I want any success.

All I have to do is look at Ella. There are two constant guys in her life right now. One, Aldon, is self-absorbed, somewhat immature, and very inconsistent, but she finds him alluring and very attractive. The other, JC, is also intelligent and attractive enough, but he is somewhat inexperienced with relationships, so he’s a bit immature and not as interesting. She complains about Aldon and asks me for advice that she never follows on how to respond to his texts. Meanwhile, JC is consistent and honest, but he takes a backseat whenever Aldon is bothering to respond to her. I get it. The guy that is self-absorbed and unreliable still challenges her, quite a bit. The constant guy doesn’t challenge her at all, so she loses interest. In my own experiences, I’ve been that constant, genuine guy. It’s rarely worked. Makes me question how I was with Mayumi for so long.

It’s hard not to be bitter. Louis CK sums up my thoughts on dating pretty well.

I was trying to plan a hangout with Rick and Ray to watch the newest wrestling PPV, but no word from either, so I just watched it myself earlier. Eh, who needs a social life.

Actually editing this several hours later now that I’m home and not on my phone, got a few rides between Lyft and Uber. Enough to be able to do a quick cash out with Lyft and have money to get by until payday. Not bad. Even got some advice from a fellow Lyft driver on a good spot to get rides in downtown Portland.

Kind of lost my train of thought, so I’ll end this. I do have to get up in 3 hours for work, so there’s also that.