HOW in THOUGHTS

I DON’T KNOW HOW TO STAY STRONG!!!!! IT’S DIFFICULT. I TELL PEOPLE I’M OK AND I GUESS I AM BUT SOMETIMES THOUGHTS GO THROUGH MY HEAD. HOW WILL I ENDURE FOR ANOTHER FEW MONTHS? HOW WILL WE COPE IN THE WINTER. WE HAVE *NOT SPENT A WINTER IN THE EAST FOR MANY YEARS. I HAVE TO GET SNOW TIRES FOR ONE OR TWO CARS. I WILL START BY GETTING THEM FOR MY CAR. HUBBY WANTS ME TO GO TO COSTCO. I WENT BUT THEY WON’T MAKE AN APPOINTMENT. YOU HAVE TO GO AND WAIT IN LINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I GUESS I’M WORRIES ABOUT HOW HUBBY WILL REACT TO HIS TREATMENTS THIS WEEK. MY DAUGHTER WILLL BE HERE FOR A WEEK. I GUESS I AM LUCKY ABOUT THAT.
I HAVE BEEN CLEANING AND ORGANIZING AND THROWING OUT. IT’S LIKE PREPARING FOR OUR DEATHS. I KNOW IT’S A BAD ATTITUDE BUT WHAT CAN I DO. I KNOW! STAY STRONG BUT HOW??????????????
OUR FRIENDS OFFER TO HELP BUT RIGHT NOW I DON’T KNOW WHAT THEY CAN DO FOR ME. HUBBY’S FRIENDS COME VISIT SO THAT KEEPS HIM COMPANY. TOMORROW A FRIEND IS COMING FOR AWHILE AND MY SON IS COMING. I GUESS IT’S GOOD WE WILL BE BUSY.
I DON’T REALLY CARE FOR PEOPLE T COME HERE BECAUSE THEN I FEEL I NEED TO BE DRESSED, THAT THE PLACE HAS TO BE CLEAN ETC.
ANYHOW HUBBY HAS BEEN SLEEPING ON THE LAZY BOY CHAIR FOR A FEW NIGHTS. HE JUST WENT INTO BED. WE WILL SEE HOW THAT GOES.- list text here