Bad Place in Random Feelings

Been there, done that, living it again.

I'm in a bad place, emotionally. Have been for awhile now if you couldn't tell by my complete lack of entries. I have a really hard time opening up when all I want to do is crawl in a cave and hide in the dark.

I isolate. It's the only way I know how to deal with the world and myself, by cutting myself off from as much external stimuli as possible. I barely speak to anyone aside from the husband and my kids and I barely say anything to them. When people start talking to me, my brain shuts down, I become completely exhausted, and usually have to go to sleep. I can't handle it, I feel like I'm drowning, suffocating, dying.

I wish I knew how to do more than fake my way through life.