So, I’ve been doing some thinking for the past few minutes and I’m wondering if I should ask for my job back. Even if I could work Monday through Thursday and get like 20 hours a week, I’d be okay at least until I found something else. One of the managers posted something about needing a babysitter and I told her I’d do it if I can’t get back on at work. The boss will be there at 2:30 tomorrow and I’m going to ask. I’m just having serious issues finding a decent paying job with the right amount of hours without a bunch of hang ups.
I just don’t like feeling vulnerable, desperate and scared about my life. I just never thought 2 weeks ago my life would be where it’s at right now and I must fix it. I’m hoping when I go in tomorrow that the boss will mention something about me coming back before I have to and if she doesn’t, I’m going to tell her I’d like to come back. I just have to do something. I feel so lost, scared, and worried about my bills! Especially since some things have not gotten paid already and I’m falling behind and I haven’t worked in about 2 weeks!
I told her I’m going to come tomorrow afternoon and if I can’t get my job back, I’m going to babysit for her. It’s only $75 a week but it’s something until I can get an actual job. I know I can’t live on that or anything but it would at least cover my car payment. I’m going to hold off putting in anymore applications until I talk to my old boss and see what the chances of my coming back are because I just don’t want to have a whole bunch of job offers all at once and not know which one to take and then have to turn shit down and then worry about not getting a job there later in life if I should need one.
All I know is I definitely don’t want to go back because of so many reasons but I’m already falling behind on bills and would like to be there until something else comes along before my financial problems get even worse. My only thing is I just want to be more in control of my schedule. I’m not thrilled at the idea of going back but I know they are in serious need of people and I’m in serious need of a job.
Ugh, I already can tell it’s going to be another sleepless night. I know my sleep isn’t gonna go back to normal until I get my job shit straightened out. I just have to get my life back in order.
My manager said that she’d talk to her tomorrow so I’m gonna wait and see if I hear from her and if not, I’m going to text the boss myself and ask if they need some help for tomorrow night. I’ve already been using my credit cards and shit so if I do go back, I need to buckle down and get my stuff paid down to a decent balance and just focus on getting things in a good spot so when I do leave to go to a job without tips, I’m not going to just be stuck paying on my credit cards and shit.
I have a glimmer of hope now but I know sleep is still going to be a bitch tonight. I’ve never been able to go to sleep on my own or stay asleep but the past 10 days have been absolute torture. Ugh, I have a lot to think about.
Goodnight y’all.
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